October 2011
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They call me the Angel of Love
I’ll find you and save you from yourself pick you up and rescue you from the gutter of your self destruction dirty with the residue of past loves I’ll kiss you clean and stitch your wounds as I comfort you in the darkness of your room I’ll give you my all as I save you from your fall and bring back the spark you thought had vacated I’ll...
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Northern Goddess you light up the room with the snowflake glitter lights that shine in your eyes breathtaking smile that melts the frost from all hearts and it starts the moment you gracefully appear face of an angel a little devil within telling stories nearly impossible to believe but I see glimmer of that horned creature hiding inside when you...
September 2011
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Mimi: Kara, can you say grace?
Kara: Grace
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Fairy Tale Addiction
From across the room I caught your starlit eyes we shared a dance under the moonless sky afraid, I ran, a glass slipper left behind but you still chased after me with your lies
You were the wolf and I was your little red
You cast your spell upon me, darling blinding me in the early morning I held onto the yellowed pages your fables were written on you were my fairy tale addiction
Around me you...
"You're my fairy tale addiction"
I think that might be my favorite line that I have ever written.
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We’re twisted, sister sick and twisted minds mangled hearts damaged and left behind but within you I’ve found a soul mate of a different kind we’ll slam a shot or three or more and run down these dark corridors of horror and gore and depraved zombie slaughterings that meander our minds because what’s life without blood splatter and...
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You’re my fairy tale addiction Sweet Rapunzel let down your hair some say it’s not fair the beauty brains and personality you possess yet they still haven’t seen you at your best exterior of a queen with the heroine gene weaving within the fibers of your being you shimmer with radiance unmatched stopping onlookers in their tracks capturing...
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Isn’t this story familiar?
And I’ve no one to blame but myself letting it happen again without any reciprocation perhaps I should lock myself away in a white and barren padded room with one window facing north at least then I can remember the sun no communication with the outside world so I can keep my heart from erratically beating for those that barely...
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It’s that moment when you know you’re falling but you realize there might be no one there to catch you and suddenly the drop seems longer and the rocks on the bottom more jagged the typically exhilarating glide becomes a terrifying dive head first toward another emotional suicide
Yet there is no stopping it no matter how irrational or nonsensical or...
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The lights have gone out yet the room is blindingly bright synapses’ firing ceased deceased in mind, body and spirit I hear it - the call to awaken but I’m mistaken in thinking I can for again I have worked myself to a state in which I cannot function malfunctioning in everything it seems I’m failing at living and breathing is erratic and
stalls
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I’ll lie with you until you find comfort in my skin against yours until your insecurities disappear with the space between our bodies just feel my fingertips wander across the landscapes of your flesh just a caress to set your mind at ease to please your better senses touch of our skin taste of our lips in this place nothing else exists ...
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My mind is constantly consumed with thoughts of people who never think of me loyalty has always been my curse though it is nearly indestructible it’s always tethered to the wrong people the ones without the time the ones without the drive the ones chasing the attention affections and connections of those who care as much about...
Me: What does morose mean?
Kara: Batman.
Me: Is Batman the answer to everything?
Kara: Yes.
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Cascading light falls from your eyes what was once an array of color now only gleams the crimson of lust I noticed how you looked at me before but I pushed it aside away from my mind not wanting to see you in any other light but one night you came to me fervent passion radiating in your words and it felt as though the boy I loved was gone before me stood a...
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Hacking cough I need to quit smoking as she pulls a second from the pack and starts the process again
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The rising sun weighs heavily upon my heart because I know that you are gazing upon it too miles away centuries apart yet still connected and tethered to my heart and it pulls that string it pulls me toward you tugging on my will and defenses breaking me down wearing me out consuming my being and emptying my body all at once until I am nothing...
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The gunshot was dulled by the overstuffed furniture filling the room. She stared at Diane, eyes wide with shock. Her fingers gripped the wound on her stomach, blood seeping through her fingertips. Her knees gave out and she collapsed to the floor.
Diane smiled.
Finally, he could belong to her. No longer would his wife stand in the way.
Diane nearly ran to the inn where they always met. She...
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If only I could stand before my reflection and carefully carve away each imperfection letting the vile red that courses within me drain down the pipes and out into the sea life and love and wanting and yearning spilling from my veins to relieve this burning perhaps when I’m nothing but cold flesh I can carry on without the burden of the rest perhaps when I’m dead the sunrise...
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The fall from the top that peak of emotions where you feel unstoppable brings you lower than you’ve ever been just one hour ago I was loving life now in the quiet of my empty room the weight of the world is resting upon me crushing my spirit
I see it glisten peripheral reminder that death is simply a slice away
and its song is so sweet tonight
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I need something to fill the void you left but every avenue leaves me emptier than before I abhor this vacancy inside me glowing sign room for rent but no takers
just me drowning in this bottle drowning in the dream of one day feeling whole
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It was New Years.
Thankfully, I can’t remember what year.
Your friend from high school was in town and we met up for beers. Then we went back to the apartment, bringing him and his girlfriend. More drinks started to flow. Strip poker began and you told your friend that I liked to hookup with girls when I was drunk.
He said, “So does she,” referring to his girlfriend and I...
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Worn out fading away mind feeble from the wearying days but there’s still a fire in my heart burning burning burning that I cannot put out my mind yearning to douse these flames stirring for love for passion my body has yet to encounter but I’m tired too tired to fight and my heart will win yet again
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I stain my arms with ink to keep from staining them with blood black scrawls I write her name K to keep me strong to remember why I need to remain whole A to amend my faults forgive myself for the pain I’ve caused R to remind myself why I’m still here I cannot quit yet, not yet, not yet A to attribute my happiness to her I need to smile, survive,...
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If knives are fingers, then let them touch your skin; they’ll leave their words in scar tissue. Don’t scream as they’re etched in
Let the scars remind you You are mine, and only mine. The perfect blades show, It’s in pain which you confide.
It’s the pain in which you hide knowing only of fleeting relief momentary reprieve for inside the storm continues to rage on
Bleeding crimson sin...
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Lying awake, thinking of so many things
So many troubles
Sadness overwhelming me, pouring from every pore
Then all of a sudden
What’s this?
A calm in the storm?
A thought that cuts through the chaos of my troubled mind.
I find you there; smiling, laughing, joking, serenading me with your sweet voice.
What a dream, although a daydream, this is
I...
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Silently crawling Into the depths of my mind; Making way Leaving nothing behind. Just a trail of blood Showing where I’ve been Mapping the suffering and pain I’ve been holding within Enter in clusters Which hide and reveal; Feelings hidden A little too real. Long buried They cut like daggers But I’m forced to face Memories that once mattered About me and the person I use to...
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You are my link to reality in your fragile world of fantasy and though I’m often lost within the bone walls of my psyche I look at you and remember my reason for living no matter how much I hate myself despise my life abhor living I could never leave you alone in this world you think of me as the strong fist of protection but you are keeping me alive without...
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Bury me six feet under so I don’t have to hear the noise of others living their lives pack my ears eyes and mouth with dirt to replace the theoretical filth that already consumes me just let me lay in utter silence so my heart can remember what it’s like to not feel anything let me die here forgetting my life the one I lived and the one I...
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Crystal Blue
Stranded with nothing but a bag of blue ice blue like the sky and chipped nail polish blue like the car she sits in on the side of the abandoned road she takes a hit and the blue in her soul fades away vibrant shades manifest before her eyes the ice that saves her the ice that makes her feel alive the ice that is slowing killing her rotting away what was left inside her mind shivering with the...
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Today I have one wish normally it would be for a kiss upon your supple lips sometimes it’s for our bodies to be pressed so firmly together our hearts syncopate other times I simply wish I was lying secure and warm in your arms
Today, however I have only one wish I wish I could feel anything at all
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What light through yonder window breaks doth the vibrant luminous glow speak of truth and hope and love or dost thee show the way from darkness this eternal charcoal that resides in my soul
The light is a glimpse of what I’ll never obtain it’s showing happiness when all I feel is pain it’s the brightness that radiates from others hearts not mine with...
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Dearest Heart,
I am tired of playing these games between maniacal laughter and frame shaking sobs where you’re elevated to the stratosphere before you are smashed into the ground shattered to pieces that Body and I are forced to pick up reassemble stitch and staple so you resemble something whole you think your actions don’t affect us you think you can flutter...
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There are days when I smile when the world I traverse seems manageable and even days when I close my eyes at night feeling that everything will be alright but in the aftermath in the drowning hangover of happiness my lips reminisce on kisses missed my skin hardens in the freezing abstinence of touch my heart aches in the breaks where love once resided and...
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My body calls out you in the night as pleasure rolls through me in waves your name in the powerful tremors shaking my grip on reality as I sink further and further into fantasies of you never to return to the surface again
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I use to think child leashes were inhumane...
…until I had a kid and said kid escaped in a department store. That was a terrifying minute, but ended without tragedy - just a yelling mother and a crying child. I’d seen it played in movies a hundred times. The mothers yells, “Don’t you ever do that to me again,” holding back the tears of joy that were tears of horror only second before. And the child weeps. I...
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During the day (external drama aside) I am fine happy even as I bury myself in work and writing stressing my brain beyond the limits of these clones I am surrounded by but when night falls I am weakened my creativity has been bleed dry I cannot stop my mind from wandering to the darker reaches of my life the galaxies where happiness no longer ...
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Heart versus Mind
I need someone to love me I need to love myself I want someone to hold me where is the comfort in sleeping alone? I want to walk hand in hand with someone stronger than I am but I have this tiny creature who counts on me for strength I want to feel protected I am her savings grace I need love...
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I hate that I miss you when you don’t miss me but what hurts even more is constantly wondering if I ever even cross your mind at all
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I see the way you look at me as I run my fingers through my hair and there’s a quiver in you lips when I lick my tongue along my own and in that moment I know when you lay down with your wife tonight and your kids are snug in their beds you’ll close your eyes against your life as your lonely hands wander to nasty thoughts of me
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God, I miss you… Stop no not today not now I’m stronger and will carry on with or without him
Oh, how I long for your face… But why when there is so much else to lay my eyes upon glorious landscapes outside my front door yet trembling hands grip eternally to this forgotten photograph
Love, I yearn...
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Stop it, Heart you aren’t supposed to feel through these impenetrable walls stop it, Heart you aren’t supposed to leap when you’re bearing these chains stop it, Heart I’ve silenced you long ago quit whispering his name to me stop it, Heart I told you not to flutter and skip when my eyes rest upon his face stop it, Heart you’re...
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Emotional Construction - Strengthening Foundations
Do you feel that tremor in your heart when you think of that missing special someone and there is a dipping arch in your soul and it’s sinking pulling you down to the flood of emotions hiding beneath the floors of your being and you’re weakening caving to the urges to reach out to scream out why are you gone? take a deep breath pull on...
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I love you, moonbeam you are the only light that shines in the darkness and though you doubt your power I see you clearly illuminating all that had remained hidden cowering in the shadows of my existence but in your light I am no longer afraid continue to rain rays upon me and I’ll keep dancing in the Milky Way
cocosmodernlife:
My Beautiful Red another year older where most flowers would wilt you are blossoming more and more lovely each and every day I grow by your side basking in the glorious rays of words and the downpours of angels’ tears yet side by side we remain planted in the fortitude of love and hope I bow to you Oh, Gracious Rose ...
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I love the way my hair feels on my bare skin like waves of silk cascading down I feel sexy and seductive until I remember it’s not your fingers tracing down my back or your lips upon my neck just my own locks as I lay down in my bed alone
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I know I don’t talk to you as much as I should and I know I put my faith in other things I also know I’ve done things continue to do things that make the angels cry which is why it rains so much when I’m feeling alive but the heavens pour even when when I abhor life as though they are crying with me I’m just trying to feel whole and I’ve searched...
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Emotional Construction - Building Walls
Start off by sitting or laying somewhere close your eyes and tune out the world visualize your shattered heart barely holding with rusted staples and rotting stitches (see heart mending 101 if you’ve yet to complete) notice its erratic beating effected by each and every word that’s uttered in its direction that’s why you’re reading this lay...
