March 2012
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I wish you knew how many letters I write you but never send I wish you knew how I stare at your photo for hours on end if only you could see the cracks in my psyche from trying to fit you in they match the slits on my knees from the countless hours of begging and pleading in sin
She slips beneath the wooden floor unable to form into something more all that is left is a hollow shell her heart...
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I miss you
but I can’t reach out and tell you for fear of being that girl
It hit me like a speeding train when all at once the only thing I wanted was to see your face or maybe hear your voice but if I called would you even answer?
And so I sit longing but not speaking wanting but not acting waiting but not hoping
wishing you felt the same
February 2012
17 posts
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Sweetly singing celestial serenades hoping my voice carries through the breeze that perhaps my melody will greet your ears and remind you that you are mine but in time the tune will be altered spinning vigorously through the leaves pulling the love from my verse leaving only the curse that separates you from me and while I wish my voice could crush mountains and long for the rhythm to bend time...
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With the waning of the moon in the frostbitten sky my heart still sings out for your blushing sigh
waiting for the day when we can twine our fingers and never let go
When the sun sets on the marrow you will be farther than before I will still call your name hoping to see you once more
waiting in silence for your glorious return when life can resume
You will never be forgotten for you’ve...
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Every time I close my eyes I only see your face
In drunken stupors and twilight revelries your smile is always the dawn
But beyond that longing song heartache and regret remain knowing that to tear down this wall would only result in pain
I yearn for moments missed our midnight trysts robbed without warning waking without pain come morning
Every time I close my eyes I only see your face
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My dreams of romance have vanished leaving behind an empty crevice that is no longer tangible
I do not feel the call of my heart my mind doesn’t wander to alternate realms where we can be together and the sun sets and rises on only us
I no longer sit on the beaches of my imagination toes buried in our sand my heart beating in your hand living the...
Smonologue #9
This was one of my first posts and I think it still holds true. Kevin Smith has become my leading inspiration. Every dream that crosses his mind he goes after it and makes it his reality. This Smonologue (painstakingly typed via Twitter) pushed me over the edge between dreaming and doing. After reading it again today, I hope I can get back on track again. As for now? Enjoy his...
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I watched you through the chain-link fence your laughter carried on the summer breeze thawing my heart from its winter chill
I sat in the grass awaiting your return blowing dandelion seeds over to your side hoping thoughts of me would grow with them
One night as I lay staring at the stars I heard your strong footsteps approaching you sat with me in the darkness talking until daylight returned
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My heart was pushed out to sea in a boat crafted of my dreams blazing in flamed glory in the black starless night
I watched as the fire burned sending glistening smoke to the heavens reflecting the flames in the waves until there was nothing left but dust
Viking funeral to end my pain sending my whimsical fantasies far from this earth where they can no longer...
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ache as though my heart has been ripped from my chest by leather hands that harbor anger and regret for mistakes of the past and the future choosing the present to tear me apart
ache the longing for a heartbeat that has ceased necromancing the corpse of a love that never was romance is but a ghost rising from a shallow grave because it wasn’t worth...
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The air is thick weighing heavily in my lungs pressing uncomfortably against my tired heart leaving the glittering dreamscapes to the dull sunrise realizing my dreams are the only place where love exists you held out your hand and asked me to dance our bodies cascading across the pavement mimicking words you once whispered words of a love that has...
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Drowning in the thoughts of you I cannot breathe your words are the air that shock my heart into rhythm your smile the sun that warms me but with only thoughts the current is taking me under fantasies wantings longings and this ocean of tears only gets deeper with every day you are away
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I want to wake up with you is that so bad? I want to fall asleep in your arms body quaking from our passion I want to feel your breath rhythmically falling on my neck I want my heart to sync with yours I want to cook breakfast as our smiles speak for us but mostly I want to wake up with you
is that so bad?
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Peel the skin away from my bones then toss it on the fire so I can no longer feel the ghosts of your fingertips or the yearning for your touch
Next crack open my rib cage and tear out my heart burn it to ashes so its rhythm will cease and I’ll no longer hear your song
Finally saw open my skull and remove my brain so I can’t remember you think...
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You need to let yourself go
I said not wanting him to miss out on the joys life has to offer
You need to give in
I said knowing the delicious pleasure makes up for the inevitable pain
You need to let yourself fall
I said wishing for anything except to fall alone
All he said in response to my pleas one syllable an affirmation of my regret
No
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There are somethings you never forget unfortunately it always seems to be the bad memories that remained tattooed on your skull
It’s all the little things, now that I look back, that make me sick to my stomach. The things I over looked, the lies I believed - or settled with, at least - that haunt my mind on days like today.
There are numbers, so many numbers, of which I don’t...
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He’s the one that you said to yourself if only… then everything would be perfect
He’s the one that you thought of when you’d let your mind wander when you thought of love
He’s the one that was your perfect match your other half your soul mate
He’s the one that only thought of you after sunset when he realized how...
