March 2012
17 posts
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I would have given you my all been everything you’d ever hoped for dreamed for wished upon a star for I would have been the final one the last first kiss your gateway to bliss the end of your journey I would have been
if only you’d let me if only you had let me be
but I was never close enough
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There is a hardened darkness inside me that grows with every passing day it started as sorrow a longing for things just out of my reach a small orb of sadness I was learning to cope with to bury to ignore but it’s evolving an oozing pustule of envy formed on its side leaking hatred for those that had that one thing I didn’t love as the months grew colder and I...
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Sex is messy she said it’s sloppy and sweaty swapping body fluids heavy breathing trying to catch your breath then in a few minutes it’s over
Yeah, it’s messy he replied but there’s nothing like the fire of feeling someone’s skin against your own that complete connection mind, body and soul it isn’t simply about catching your breath it’s about trying to inhale someone else’s
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Wolverine, why dost thou cry in the night howling unendingly at the moon those tucked in bed shiver in frozen fright but thine heart is tarnished from lasting gloom
Dost the bright moonlight not make thy love bloom memories of thine lover’s warm embrace ghostly sounds of her heartbeat’s gentle swoon yet thou art slowly forgetting her face
The ground is worn from thine unceasing pace...
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I wish you could hear my heart my heart it beats it beats for you for you and match it’s pace with your own your own lonely lonely heartbeat heartbeat
I’ve dreamed a thousand dreams counting stars in the night wishing you were wishing a wish of me as...
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Bluebird,
The air is blowing cold this morning as your words wrap themselves around my heart. We’re far apart - miles separating our bodies, ideals distancing our minds - but this morning, our hearts are in the same place.
You whisper of longings, desires, wishes unfulfilled while I kneel before you, resolution beating in my chest. I know you hear me. I know you see me, feel my bleeding...
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There’s whispers, you know mumblings of what life could be for you and me if you’d only let me in
but with a past shadowed in sin ghosts and demons twirling within your heart has hardened to granite
but I’m chipping away at the stone finding a niche to call home one day you’ll see what I see and these days of cat and mouse will be our story to tell
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If you’d let but a ray of your sun caress my wanting skin my heart would warm for a thousand years thawed from the ice age of the ever present doom looming gloomily in my sky
But alas you are the moon as well adding a glimmer to the distant stars stars of hope and love that lie only in your eyes blow a breeze through the trees of my valley tremble my core with your powerful hands and...
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Bluebird,
I wish you could spend a day in my mind. Perhaps then you could see things the way I do. Maybe then you’d realize why I’m not fighting this, running from this, hiding from this like you are. So afraid of pain, inflicting or suffering, you turn away, turn off and disappear while I attempt to keep you near despite that nagging voice screaming ‘no!’
Let...
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Dearest ghost why dost thou whisper through the starlit breeze weakening keepsake hearts trembling to mine knees
Darling ghost why dost thou rumble in rolling waves of sorrow tarnishing lock box souls rusting the dawn of the morrow
Precious ghost why dost though haunt me so sewn through the tears of mine being for every ache thou art bringing memories of jubilee fleeting
Dearest ghost why...
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It tickled upon my lips itched at my fingertips I breathed I… I gasped and swallowed it down
Despite the scars on my skin regardless of the staggered stitches laced up and down my heart though I’ve grown stone cold inside there is a fire that burns for you I cannot douse it not that I’d want to it’s all I have left to remind me I’m alive
It...
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Because when I wake you’re on my mind running laps through space and time and when I feel I’ve finally escaped Neverland returns to swallow me whole deadly hollows calling my name a gasp of fresh air to tease my soul never to see the sunrise again
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She’s the sun Shining rays through the clouds Glistening in the wake Of destruction and despair
She’s the rain Cleansing waters of the heavens Vanquishing the filth Of those who cannot see her beauty
She’s the love Twinkling in stolen hearts Warming cold bodies with passion Raising the dead to life
She’s everything All the smiles and laughter She’s everything To someone
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Remember when I use to matter to you? Yeah - those were the good old days but introduce a pretty blond easy to love easier to touch and suddenly my presence matters not
But it’s okay I understand just another dandelion seed caught on the wind story of my life only a temporary whim
at least now my heart can rest and not leap at your command
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My go-to thought is you
Fruit juice drips from your sweet lips as we sit in the sand watching the sun descend
You took me to the beach from that picture you sent and we sat in awe as every color danced across the sky but it was you that caught my eye unable to focus on the beauty because at last we were side by side
This is only the prelude as romance blossoms in the twilight but before we...
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I wish you knew how many letters I write you but never send I wish you knew how I stare at your photo for hours on end if only you could see the cracks in my psyche from trying to fit you in they match the slits on my knees from the countless hours of begging and pleading in sin
She slips beneath the wooden floor unable to form into something more all that is left is a hollow shell her heart...
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I miss you
but I can’t reach out and tell you for fear of being that girl
It hit me like a speeding train when all at once the only thing I wanted was to see your face or maybe hear your voice but if I called would you even answer?
And so I sit longing but not speaking wanting but not acting waiting but not hoping
wishing you felt the same
February 2012
17 posts
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Sweetly singing celestial serenades hoping my voice carries through the breeze that perhaps my melody will greet your ears and remind you that you are mine but in time the tune will be altered spinning vigorously through the leaves pulling the love from my verse leaving only the curse that separates you from me and while I wish my voice could crush mountains and long for the rhythm to bend time...
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With the waning of the moon in the frostbitten sky my heart still sings out for your blushing sigh
waiting for the day when we can twine our fingers and never let go
When the sun sets on the marrow you will be farther than before I will still call your name hoping to see you once more
waiting in silence for your glorious return when life can resume
You will never be forgotten for you’ve...
